Saturday, August 20, 2011

Were you ever faced with something you knew you could never handle, but you had no choice,...?

when my mom ped away suddenly, this goes back over 23 years now, I thought I'd have to take care of my dad and all. No, he totally and completely locked me out. He did everything, never wanted help, wouldn't even talk about things even when I knew he was hurting. Because of that it took me years to openly grieve for my mother. Then my dad became ill with cancer. Prospects were good in the beginning but as with these type of things the cancer returned after treatment and his quality of life slowly began to lessen. He still wouldn't ask for help but I was always there with meals, cleaning, checking on him sometimes three time during the day and twice at night and I was working part time as well as raising teen agers and keeping up with all their activities. It wasn't until he was literally days from ping that he told me thank you for helping and I should have asked for help sooner. At least he did express it to me. But I was left with regrets, a house to take care of, his belongings to sort through. I guess that's usual but it seemed to me to be a mountain I could never climb. I did and now have peace although it has taken me ten years. Each of our three children has had a chance to live in their grandpa's house for a time. It's become a right of page for each on their road to independence. I know my dad would have approved and the kids are now helping share the expenses of keeping the house and property. Faith played a big part, yes, as did support from my husband.

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